I’ll not cry. Looks Nits, didi is crying though she always wanted you to stand here! Mumma is crying, daddy as always hugged me, uttered I’m proud of you! I am amazed how in a jiff he forgot all the pain I caused him. How selfless is my father! I am not even closer. I won’t be able to serve my child like this from the peanuts he gets every month.
Oho, what are you thinking?
Nothing didi, I’ll miss you! Me too stupid but don’t make me cry now. See you are travelling alone for the first time. There will a queue first for ticket checking, passport, and luggage. This bag, take it with you and tell them to put a fragile sticker on your suitcase.
Yes didi, I get it! Don’t teach me now! Let me learn it by myself. To date it’s you and papa Mumma who spoon-fed me, now it’s time to learn things.
 Now as I am taking steps inside the airport to board my flight CATHAY PACIFIC my life is moving in front of my eyes. This is going to be an exile for all of us. Papa, mummy, didi and me. People will talk as they always, I am bad, I’ll never return, I might keep asking for more money. I know papa the situation you are in to make me board this flight. I know didi how much invested in me to make me what I am today by supporting me always, moreover mummy who had blind faith in my decision in choosing college overseas, that I might become a millionaire in this life. The life you gave me and never ask anything in return and I’m sure you will!
My demands to fulfil dreams of becoming a filmmaker and asking for stuff to do that and then realizing it’s not something I meant for. Oh god, I would have killed my son for such a weirdo and spending money recklessly. I now realize how difficult it is when I am cycling down the hills to deliver pizza and not paid well because pizza is icy cold. Oh my lord, papa from catering jobs to salesman job along with a less paid full-time job, what you haven’t done for me?
I can never pay back.
 
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It’s just six months, I mean what’s the haste? Why you and jiju didn’t get married when I was there.
Ofo, Are you mad? haha, we haven’t had any plan for this, it just happened.
Okay then wait for me to get graduated and then marry. I don’t want to miss anything or attend anything in haste. I want to enjoy your marriage.
Don’t you think it will be too late. I’ll be buddhhi! I am sending you return tickets, so just come back I am so excited to hug you!
She will get married now who will take care of Mumma papa? Well she is also turning 29 and has a beau then it’s okay. She will still take care of them. I know her.
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God only knows am I thinking too much or I have grown or changed drastically in these 6 months. When I hugged my parents, my didi nothing seems like before. Not their love but as if I have some duty towards them! Time is slipping. In these 6 months, I felt just like my daddy never told me about his pains and problems; I hope I can never cry in front of them. The cold shivers, the hunger days, no job day, no money days, how couldn’t I? My mom understood everything when she saw me, “Kitna weak lag raha hai tu”. These two days just passed away! It’s like in a jiff my sister is now a woman.
I boarded the flight. Bid au revoir to everyone! This time one member added, it was jiju!
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Two years passed but I never been apart from my loved ones. This is going to be longer as it’s just the degree that got completed. The hassle will start now!
Oh god! Growing up sucks! I want to be that child again, a little different. I’ll keep my dishes in the sink maybe some days wash it as well.
Leaving certain things, I’ll be never reckless at spending money.
These all are the wishes and dreams now. As it’s just a starting of grinding myself. It’s a long way to go. Realization is a big achievement than any other degree or any piece of paper.
This the realization happened to me when I stepped out of my comfort zone, when I slept hungrily, when at home I used to create Mumma used to clean it but here the old lady bang at my door amidst of the night just to clear a tiny spot of fresh cream left on the kitchen sink, hey NK take this dish away! Haha, See I told ya!. When asking for an iPhone was easier to buy a basic T-shirt with money earned by me. I knew always what I don’t want to do, my sister always trusts in me, rather than anything else and also shuts me down when I am a pain and talks shit. I understand that everyone is not there for you everywhere but family no matter what, how far you are, you are always backed up by them. Leaving home was never easy. I made a wise decision. I am changed now.  I’ll forget all the bad things that happened to me and all the bad things done by me but I’ll forget the lessons each of them taught me!